Another Heartache...

Barely two weeks when my dad returned to His Creator, we were again left with another heartache with the sudden demise of my aunt/godmother/ninang Mally.

Got a call from my sis and the first thing she asked was if I were in a good place, if I were sitting down...and I said, why ask me such questions...I was already running a lot of scenarios in my head as to what she will be telling me...and then she broke the news, my Ninang Mally was gone....

At first, I thought it was a dream, that I was in a dream...that maybe I heard it wrong. After the phone call, I called her again to confirm and reconfirm and reconfirm...and however I try not to believe what I heard, it was true. I was in a state of shock. I didn't know what to do, what to think...It just wouldn't sink in. 

It was another sleepless night for me, it was again a Wednesday...was it a coincidence that Dad and Ninang both left this world on a Wednesday. What does it mean? Why? Why? Why?

I kept asking WHY? 

But who am I to ask the Lord. 

Only He knows when is the time for us to part this world.

Only He knows what the future has for us.

Only He knows why.

All I could do was pray and pray hard. 

Pray for strength and understanding.

Pray to the Lord that He increases our faith in this trying times.

It was painful for me. My Ninang was like my second mom. We both celebrate the same birthday. September 15. She would always remind me that I was born while she was celebrating her 18th birthday and that my mom wasn't able to cook pancit for her. This year, she was 53 and I turned 35. We would always exchange greetings and wishes.

I miss her. 

I will miss her.  

I know she will be watching over us just like my dad is now.

I was also thinking of my mom. I know this is really painful for her. She was just starting to recover from the heartache of losing our dad and now, she lost her sister. I wouldn't know how to comfort her, to reassure her that all will be well. 

Life is indeed a mystery. You will never know when or how you will depart this world.

I even have to ask myself if I am ready to leave this world should the Lord calls on me to depart it. 

While at mass yesterday, during the Homily...the priest words struck me...

He said...

" If you die, did the world become a better place because you lived?..."

Indeed...something to ponder upon...

Oh September!

 

September has always been a month I look forward to, not just because it's my birthday month (15) but also my hubby's birthday month (17) and our wedding month (civil 17... church 18)...

Now, September would also be the month that Daddy left us and joined his Creator.



Happy Birthday Baby!

Papa Garcia also celebrates his birthday on the same month as I do! 
So he would always joke around when my birthday comes because we are of the same age for 2 days before he adds another year to his age. 

We usually choose one day to celebrate both our birthdays. 
Surprise each other with gifts.
It's so much fun to have the same birthday month.

11 years and counting!

This year, we celebrate our 11th wedding anniversary.
Wow, can't even believe that it has been 11 years since we first started writing our love story together...and I would love to continue writing it til eternity.

To my dear hubby, as I have always said...always remember that
"My LOVE will stand when all else has fallen..."

I love you and Happy Anniversary!

Wedding Day

Pre-Nuptial Photoshoot

February 2011

2012

Thirty Five!

Turned 35 over the weekend.
Arghh, can't believe my age is not in the calendar anymore...hahaha

Tried to celebrate without much fuss for we are still grieving.

As always, it was rainy...and as they say, this means more blessings for me...Yipee!

But what I am really thankful for is that I am surrounded by love every time I celebrate my special day...

Thank you Lord for another year...you always amaze me!

A week after...

"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, 

love leaves a memory no one can steal..."

- Anon

A week has passed since our dear dad joined our creator.
Yet all of us are still struggling to go back to the normalcy of our everyday lives BUT it's just so hard...still can't believe that dad is gone. There is this empty space in my heart that longs to see his smile again and hear him call out my name...

Now all we have are 

         memories...memories that will forever remain etched in our hearts,
           values...values that we will carry on and pass on to our kids and       grandkids...

I don't know when we will recover from this heartache but what I know is that Dad is now in a happier place free of pain and physical suffering...

I love you dad...I will always be your little girl...